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I LOVE RAECHEL RAY
hey girl hey
2. get some art home work
3. get some MORE sleep.
4. have some more people come to the exersize dance party club
5. even more sleep.
6. get my voice back
i am too sleepy to function. and on top of that i have my period. which worries me. cause last time i had it was 13 days ago. maybe the food ad the sleep cycle getting fucked is doing it. either way it isn't good. so i am super sleepy.
annnnnnd i am only a tiny bit away from my normal voice! still cant get high notes but i am like a centermeter away from being able to do my sexy milk maid voice so by tomrow i should be fine. huzzah!
complaining done!
a list of really awesome things that have happened:
1. building of the omega mecca cardboard box fort.
2. seeing the aquabats in concert with the two girls mentioned above rica and elise!
3. started dating bobby. about damn time.
4. seeing my friends from temple main and going for yummyiest japanese food ever
5. strolling south streets to pick out corsets ( i bought a necklace but i am going back for one when i have started work study and can feel less guilty about spending so much on one article of clothing)
6. studio dance party
7. stealing a massive amount of nectureens
now we all know how much i love fruit. and how excited i get about really good fruit. these nectureens they serve at the cafeteria a crisp and juicy with the best kind of tangy kick. and! they are gorgeous. bright vibrant golds and reds and bright pinks. it is the perfect fruit.
my voice is completely shot. i saw alex and catllyn. we met at condom kingdom and it pretty much kicked off the day of going from sex shop to sex shop. and i found the best and cheapest pizzza/greek food place ever.
i will not be happy untill i am on college soil. i am so anxious. me and my roomate(s) seem really chill with each other. and i spoke on the phone to one of them for a solid 20 minutes before i had to go and we worked out the boy situation. which is if you want a good time tell the other roomates a month in advance if some on is sleeping over so they can find other space.i am still so on the fence about scoping out the scene or not. you know what. i'll go in with no expectations, not wanting a realtionship (cause that is how i feel now) and end up with one. because fate loves reverse phsychology. whenver i am looking for a man flirting it up they all end up to be big fat tards. but then when i am shmoozing not giving a damn that is when they strike. so either way i win i guess. either i don't get booty which is what i want or i do get booty which...well, who wouldn't want some romantic booty? it is all about the romance serenade strumin', poetry writin', dragon slayin' -booty.
what i am really excited about is the work load. i have been LONGING to work all day and all night inthe studio again. this break has totaly re charged my batteries. i am ready. i am pumped. i'm always pumped.
i wish i was leaving tomroow instead of wednesday. ah well.
and i am buying my aquabats ticket at the door so hopefully everything will work out ok.
i am so frickin sore. and it feels so good. today is going to be a great day.
I am going to my baby cousin's birthday in long island by the beach today. and uncle saul and uncle david and aunt susan will be there (who are acutally my uncles and aunts unlike uncle bob and scott and so on).
Saul - was in the milatery as a marine (i think) has a huge eagel tatoo now he is a cop. total bad ass with a heart of gold.
Susan- ran away at home at the age of thirteen to follow The Monkeys around on tour. total groogy. met jim morrison! tride to be the PR for the clinton adminstration, didn't make it but ironically got hired by bush, turned it down is a PR for amnesty International.
David -used to be in a metal band as his prmary source of income. met his wife that way. now is a elctrician who can still orck hard. his son is adorible and it is gonna be a whle lot of fun to see them all again.
i just woke up feeling like a train wreck. and i was like fuck it is one of those days. i just felt insecure and filled with anticipation. and i hate that feeling. i think it was because i am so excited for college but it was jus felt like i was constantly waitign for somethign to happen and it wasn't happening. it was like a rush of boredom that was to intense to bare. it was horrid. i delt with it in my way of calling everyone i know and talking for house on the phone (god bless rachel major and our amazing hour plus giggle fest) but then it all turned around!
sam clark, bless her soul picked me up and whisked me away to the magical world of finnigans where beatnick and this REALLY AMAZING SKA BAD WHICH I CAN"T REMBER THE NAME OF played and iwas like fuck yes a realse. i just went up and skanked my little heart out. i was the only girl in the entire thing save for cecilia (who left after the first ten minutes i was there) i just kinda wailed on the dance floor. they pushed me around a bit, i flew into the stereos at one point and then ran to andy earle and was like i'm a little girl and he was like it's ok, it's ok and i was like they are so big! but it was all so amazing. and i could feel my body just get physically drained and really loose and you skank and stomp through it and when your done you just so happy. I wish i could do it every night but i probably be to sore to function ---right now my neck feels pretty fucked but in the best way possible. i am so happy-mellow i just want to curl up and sleep smiling.
so it's up to conneticuit. which is very bitter sweet because i am going to be there and not see melinda. and i feel nothing less then PASSION for that girl.
oh. and guess what. they are making a mother (grundle) fucking, blood pumping BEOWOLF MOVIE. FUCK YES. i am insialy pumped for that shit. the only thing that would have made it better is if bruce willis was playing him. just because bewolf is that badass. although russel crowe is pretty gnarley in his own right. he flipped the bird in princton campus, so he is cool by me.
and so this is my life:
fri/sat - Uncle bob's lake house
sun - philly for TU friends
mon - star wars pool party!
i have a darth vadar mask and everything.
any way so i played water basket ball on my brothers team which was an omega bonding experaince. he is TOTALLY gtting invited to thanksgiving when we grow up. any ways i covered this kid with one and a half arms. (he only has his arm up to his elbow on the other arm, and i keptgetting caught under his nub, and it flailed all about and hit me in the eye. but i figured out how to lock the nub unde rmy arm so i can grab the basketball out of his other hand. just cause he is handicapped doesn't mean i am going to go lightly on him. it's all about the strong D. and i can't shoot for my life.
me and liz went to see hairspray. and oh my goodness it was so much fun. i was dancin in my seats despite myself.
and tomrow i think i am getting together with alex and rachel and liz to see logan's run or Flash Gorden or what not. it is all very groovy.
anyway last night was sooo much fun! me and noah walked all around princton campus scoping at babes and scoffing at the princton ivy leaugers. whch he can auctally do cause he is going to columbia an di can do jsut cause i dislike the princton art prgram (though i dig their little museum) then we met up with emily and just had a grand old silly time and we all cuddeled up on a banch and ran through the fountain with out clothes on and talked about realtionships and how boys suck and how cock rocks and all that good stuff. we bumped into bobby johnnas and pooja ontheir way to rocky horror. i hope it was fun for them. then we went into penera and tried to hit on kyle. the oh so cute oh so witty penera employee. and we got a bread bowl sat down and wrote him a retarded love letter and ran like hell out of there. we are just all soooo silly. and i absolutly adore noah and we are defently goign to spend MORE time together. and go on more gay dates. he is the fag to my hag indeed he is. we mellowed out in his car and listened to radio head. i really wish i had more of their stuff because they just make me sooo happy well actualyl they are rather depressing but in a good way.
I spending a disgalso have been ustingly large amount of time with bobby. he is so hilarious he tickles my nuts and i am going to miss having an art history friend around.
i love the word rather. and i love saying it like a big old penis.
sometimes i feel like this summer is just killing time for the next big thing. ihave been feeling it more and more this week. maybe it is because my job is basically killing time, just waiting it to end while i do the same thing over and over. and when i am there i look around at all the kids who are right out of college doing this work and thing :dear lord. i don't want to be them. and maybe it is the fact that i make wittyer conversation then the 30 year old boys who sit with me at lunch sometimes. either way it is really making me erk for going to college. It is funny how the not realistic threat of a dead end job...or just a job i hate makes me despreatly want to get out. i really hate to admit this but my work depresses the hell out of me. i get boredom headaches while i am there and i pray for the machineary to break down. i have been thinking about disconecting the wires with my toes just so it can be shaken up a bit and i would have to restart the computer bend down and fix it. atleast i get lunch break. i am trying really hard to find funny things as well. like today i had to hall up Dr. Honey Holmes. Which is probably the best name yet. (i have been writing down all the really funny names i come across. i think i accidently burned it today when we made a small bonefire outside of halo pub but shhhh the list lives on) and just funny things about my coworkers. like the afro-ed white boy who try despreatly to hit on this really pretty freckled red head, or the wiggers who check out everything that moves, myself included.
i saw melinda toda which was really nice. i really enjoy that girl. she is so cute in her ways. and her mannerims always tickles me. she is one of those people i feel i will probably keep in touch with for ever despite our long distance. it is good to have those kinds of friends.
JABBER JAW.
so last night me and emily took a long walk while i wore my comfy clothes (zombie clothes) and then we went back to her place and watched probably the best movie i have seen in a while called The Secretary.
its a movie about bondage that made me want to fall in love.
| Aww yeah That’s right baby. Girl, tonight we’re gonna make love. You know how I know, baby? ‘Cause it’s Wednesday. And Wednesday night is the night that we make love. Tuesday night’s the night that we go and visit your mother, but Wednesday night is the night that we make love. ‘Cause everything is just right conditions are perfect. There’s nothing good on TV. Conditions are perfect. You lean in close and say something sexy like, “I might go to bed I’ve got work in the morning.” I know what you’re trying to say baby. You’re trying to say, “Oh, yeah. It’s business time. It’s business time.” | |
| It’s business. It’s business time. That’s what you’re trying to say you’re trying to say let’s get down to business it’s business time. | |
| It’s business. It’s business time. Next thing you know we’re in the bathroom brushing our teeth. That’s all part of it, that’s foreplay. Then you go sort out the recycling. That’s not part of it but it’s still very important. Then we’re in the bedroom. You’re wearing that ugly old baggy t-shirt from that team building exercise you did for your old work. And it’s never looked better on you. | |
| Oh, team building exercise ’99. | |
| Oh, you don’t know what you’re doing to me. I remove my jeans but trip over them ‘cause I still got my shoes on. But I turn it into a sexy dance. Next thing you know I’m down to just my socks and you know when I’m down to just my socks what time it is…it’s time for business. It’s business time. | |
| It’s business. It’s business time. You know when I’m down to just my socks it’s time for business that’s why they call it business socks. | |
| It’s business. It’s business time. Oh. Ooh, makin’ love. Makin’ love for two. Makin’ love for two minutes. When it’s with me you only need two minutes, ‘cause I’m so intense. Two minutes in heaven is better than one minute in heaven. You say something like, “Is that it?” I know what you’re trying to say. You’re trying to say, “Aww yeah, that’s it.” Then you tell me you want some more. Well I’m not surprised. But I’m quite sleepy. | |
| It’s business. It’s business time. Business hours are over. Right, right. | |
| It’s business. It’s business time. |
I think it is just so infinetly wonderful that i can make all of these connection, each inriching my life in a diffrent way, only if they are for a moment or a day. but at the same time it is a bitter sweet because many of those relationships end simply because of distance or the lack of time invested. that someone who is insainly important, and has your full attention one moment can easily be forogotten and discarded over time. this isn't suppose to sound depressing or anything, it is acutally wonderful that we have the capacity to love each other dearly (and i don't mean in a romantic sence) and to grow and morph that bond into something new, whether it is nothing, or just a memory, or applied a new realtionship.
Right now i can't help but feel a little heart broken knowing that the relations i have made the past four years are going to morph. I feel like it is so up in the air right now. i am in love with these people, these wonderful friends. Finially, after four years everything is figured out, everything feels perfect. We finially become friends with our teachers, have an important impact in our school and community, and know exactly who we are. And the catch twenty two is that we are going to be thrown into the knew, go to college and do it all over again. (caugh how exestential caugh) . i touched upon this when i spoke to aditya on the phone and he said it is impossible to live your old life while making a new one. which pretty much sums up everthing. that every realtionship is meant to end or change or both just by the nature of moving foward. Which (even more exestenal-y) makes it all worth while, knowing you only have a limited time to enjoy it. It makes me fall deeper in love with my friends and my teachers and life. This is a thought that usually discourages passion, (if it ends what;s the point. and what happens when it ends, do i get hurt?). It should make you more passionate! make you hot for life! make sure you take in every last drop of enjoyment you can with that person!
yesterday i got very disenchanted with the world. this morning i feel like i am in love with it again. I also feel like my heart is breaking. But that excites me. I am just so pumped for what the day will/can/won't bring. I hope this all didn't seem overly mellowdramtic. I just feel like explaining why i feel so intense right now.
i had a very bizarre dream last night. i was at the beach with all the northy people and we were in a cabana and andy earl was there too but it didn't look like him at all. it looked like a blond rambo. and bob squirted me with ketchup everywhere, playfully but very inconviently none the less. so i had to take a shower. which is probably the most realistic dream shower i have ever taken in my life but only on the physical sence cause i could feel the water and steam and soap and gross ketchup. but it something was really errotic about it because blond rambo was watching me. (which by the way didn't even act like andy earl i just called him that name. that is always so bizzare when that happens. when things are labeled with out relevance in dreams. like i had one where i called this huge lobster mom but it wasn't my mom and i knew that any ways). when i got out all the northys were gone and supposidly left me behing with bambo (blond rambo) to do a scavenger hunt. so he got out his gigantic butterfly kite and had me hold on to the left wing and we were over my school which was on the beach and we lost controll and landed in some trees. and bambo turned into regular andy earl and hten we had to pay for choclate for this old man before he bought it for himself nad i got distracted by the godiva and then i woke up.
i woke up in such a sad mood today. i'll shake it. but yesterday i woke up in the best mood ever! i couldn't stop jumping around and dancing all day. even when i was in the supermarket alone i had a jive to my step. it was wonderful.
NYC figment was really fun. me and aditya bonded with bobby so much. it is really nice to have a new friend. i also love the pretty architecture and how tall everything is. and here is my new boy firend:
i know he is old but by god. he knows his shit.Ha-ha, well now, we call this the act of mating
But there are several other
Very important differences
Between human beings and animals
That you should know about
I'd appreciate your input
Sweat baby, sweat baby
Sex is a Texas drought
Me and you do the kind of stuff
That only Prince would sing about
So put your hands down my pants
And I bet you'll feel nuts
Yes I'm Siskel, yes I'm Ebert
And you're getting two thumbs up
You've had enough of two-hand touch
You want it rough, you're out of bounds
I want you smothered, want you covered
Like my Waffle House hashbrowns
Comin' quicker than Fed Ex
Never reach an apex
Just like coca-cola stock
You are inclined to make me rise an hour early
Just like daylight savings time
Do it now
You and me baby ain't nothin' but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel
Do it again now
You and me baby ain't nothin' but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel
Gettin' horny now
Love, the kind you clean up
With a mop and bucket
Like the lost catacombs of Egypt
Only God knows where we stuck it
Hieroglyphics? Let me be Pacific
I wanna be down in your South Seas
But I got this notion
That the motion of your ocean means
"Small Craft Advisory"
So if I capsize on your thighs
High tide B-5 you sunk my battleship
Please turn me on
I'm Mr. Coffee
With an automatic drip
So show me yours, I'll show you mine
"Tool Time"
You'll Love it just like Lyle
And then we'll do it doggy style
So we can both watch "X-Files"
Do it now
You and me baby ain't nothin' but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel
Do it again now
You and me baby ain't nothin' but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel
Gettin' horny now
You and me baby ain't nothin' but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel
Do it again now
You and me baby ain't nothin' but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel
Do it now
You and me baby ain't nothin' but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel
Do it again now
You and me baby ain't nothin' but mammals
So let's do it like they do on the Discovery Channel
Gettin' horny now
1. i am single. and i was really sad about it for the first day and then late at night but the past three days i haven't cared at all and just have really been enjoying myself with my friends and not having to be bothered with any relationship shit. it feel really good to be single and i am just enjoying life so much right now!
2. ROCKY HORROR WAS AMAZING! i was a prom queen runner up (catlyn won with her duct tape gown. she deserved it right on) it was the best birthday ever and just wow. so intense. frankenfurter sat on bobby's lap. me and alex were laughing and screamign the whole time. there was a nun who came around to critisize our out fits. elise burnt me the best cd ever. mc donalds at 3 in the morning is just wrong so i had a mc water. and we all hung in the parking lot some where in montclaire. good time!
3. i saw TRANSFORMERS!!!! so fuck awsome. though i feel a bit jipped of the optomis prime vs megatron battle. they kinda cut away from it. i just wanted more. but it pumped me up and do i have a little crush on bumblebee? hells yes. do i tink it is wrong to have a crush on a robot? a little. but that's all good.
4. me and liz paper mached and i had a sleep over. we watched calander girls which was just great. and late night casino royal. so sexy. and now we are hanging out waiting to go to emily's bbq! excitment all around! hip! hip!
i had such a horrible sleep last night though. i was up to four in the morning with nightmares about horses. and you know your just a big dork when you don't wake up thinking "oh shit! what a horrible dream! i'm so freaked!" but instead you think "ART HISTORY REFRENCE! HENRY FUSELI! THE NIGHTMARE!"
i guess that is just how roll. but sadly my mother decided to wake me up at 8 "so my sleep cycle doesn't go out of whack" so i politly told her to basicaly go fuck herself i'm sleeping. (i was in a very undesirable mood).
what now? lots and lots of cleaning. i am a bit (a lot) cranky about doing it. (not gonna lie). and i haven't really cheered up from my bad dreams and what not either. today is not shaping up to be a really good one but i think i will give good ol' alex a call because he always livens me up and i want to check up on him and ask how is his mom doing.
post prom was ok. school council really dropped the ball on it i feel. though i did ride a blow up bull a lot and i dressed up like a zombie and totally go that out of my system. felt good. oh and i ownded alex in the obsticle course. booyeah.
post post prom was super sonic hot-cha-cha! LBI is such a geat beach. we went on a whole lot of rides (avast the sea dragon) ate a lot of ice cream and i won two sets of jacks (which i gave to john and his german respectivly) and it was just the best way ever to fuck up your eternal clock by staying up till 6 in the mornign two nights in a row (well not soo late the second naight but pretty damn late)
and the sneior mural is getting done in tip top shape. everything is coming to a close. and how do i feel? really good acutally. i don;t think it has hit me high school is over tomorow (then 4 days of finals but shhhh). it is all very surreal honestly. i don't think it will hit me till i am at my college orientation. and i am really stocked that i am going to philly. which is just about the far-ness that i like. i can still have higschool firends come and visit me and if i leave things at home that i need it is just an hour and half train ride away but i am still far enough away to cut loose from the nest and philly has so much fun in it. so many good shows and good food and i don't even mind the smell! huzzah! hoot hoot.
it has been 5 days now. and zombies are all i think about.
